You’re burning alive with stress and life

Although sometimes life annoys me, I will always stand by the fact that I am one of the luckiest people alive, I don’t deserve everything I have and I will always be grateful for it.

I have not lost anything of myself, who is to say I don’t want to fight with Green peace? I don’t think I have changed. I don’t know why we have drifted it just has happened, you are always welcome to come hang anytime you want. Right now everything is stressful. Maintaining work to be able to pay for rent while my car decides to put itself in a condition where it needs over 500 dollars in repairs, saving for a trip that looks like its going to be a poor one and doing my final assessments where I need to get a certain mark or it will literally completely change the next 3 years of my life is a little bit over whelming. 

I do miss you man, we can save the world. Next time we go down south, I want you to come. That seems to be the only time these days when I’m not stressed about something.

I’m going to miss you when you leave, and I will visit you. 

Believe me I don’t drink that much now and the other stuff is under control. At this point in my life letting myself go would be the dumbest thing I have ever done. 

I’m sorry you feel this way, but I’m still the same person we just haven’t chatted in a while.

I’ve been haunted by standard red devils and white ghosts 
and it’s not only when these eyes are closed 
these lies are ropes that I tie down in my stomach, 
but they hold this ship together tossed like leaves in this weather 
and my dreams are sails that I point towards my true north, 
stretched thin over my rib bones, and pray that it gets better 
but it won’t won’t, at least I don’t believe it will… 
so I’ve built a wooden heart inside this iron ship, 
to sail these blood red seas and find your coasts. 

Oats and a dinosaur onesie, good day

Everything lately has just been going fast and my thoughts seem to be trailing behind. I’m going good at Uni I guess. Just trying to balance things and get things organised is getting to me. Once I finished one thing another two things pop up, I always have something to worry about. Just tired of it. 

Next year will be amazing

I want to live a thousand lives in this one